Sometimes dont we just hate that person we are when we're with someone in particular? Like you just lose all your senses and you cant control what you're doing and you simply just... screw everything up. You cant even believe you have this side of you and it's like, you're acting like someone you would have really really hated.

Well, to make it even better, that somebody or those somebody(s) have to be people you really care about. But it makes sense right? if you didnt care you wouldn't bother hating yourself over it. And you cant figure out if it's this leading to that, or because of that thats why you're feeling this way. It's altogether at the same time and it's just like a freaking knot. You cant undo it or make sense of it, you accept it like that.


WELL, NVM.

Maybe one day i will know what i can do about it. Now i just DONT want to deal with it, not yet.


And seriously, i'm so angsty now i bite whoever comes in my way and there's no good reason for it. Because, i'm freaking angry with myself. I would like to you know, get out of my own body and punch myself in the face so i can dont feel the pain Ha ha ha nvm.