How do you know when do you cross the line and is officially mad now? Maybe some of us have been mad for a really really long time. Maybe some of us were just pretending to be.


Madness: Trying too hard to be happy
Madness: Making too many things up in your own mind
Madness: Decided that the world you made up is better than the one you currently live in
Madness: Gone away too far for too long and not brave enough to get back
Madness: Believe that people don't know how to talk to one another anymore, so gave up trying
Madness: Over protective of yourself
Madness: Too much love for everything
Madness: Too much fear for everything
Madness: Failed to make sense of things


Do you think its possible for one to really make a wrong choice? Could it be that we were meant to walk down a very different road? I do not believe we live by a script. I don't believe in fate. I believe that "fate" is something created by us. Sometimes we want something to happen so badly, we do things to increase the chance of letting it happen without ourselves knowing. Or we look around for signs, when all the time we just seek for things that will confirm what we're looking for.

So if there is no script, then it's not possible for us to have made a wrong choice, could we? We can't really be too late for anything; there are no rules if we are our own writer, right? Yea, maybe. But that still doesnt change anything. We still don't do what we are not brave enough to. We still can't let go of all our mistakes. We are still hurt and we still get tired. Sometimes we feel like it's the end, and that will be the end.

Maybe we writing our own script is exactly the reason things are the way they are.

I realised there are so so many people who can write really well, with colourful vocabs, grammar-free sentences, expressing themselves with ease. Everything that i wish i am able to, but could not. But i also realised why even so, no one is writing. Because there is nothing they want to write about. They don't need those words like i do.


In other words, a pointless post, really.

Things i will do/think/talk about to not study.
Bye.